There are some blogs that I follow -very few,
actually- and they definitely have more the character I would like to give to my
own blog: it´s mostly thoughts of people
with some brain who discuss over interesting matters in a quite objective or
impersonal, almost “universal” way, maybe taking off from something they read in
the paper that inspired their gray mass. Or a word whose meaning they
investigate. Or the sentence of an author that strikes them and which they use
to dive into some complex and deep thoughts.
Sometimes I wish my blog went more in that
direction, yet I feel it cannot; and maybe even should not. Yet. I might be too
egotistic, self-absorbed, or maybe only just too “teenagerly”, but I don´t
manage - don´t want? - to write things in a universal, nearly-objective way. Since
what moves me to write is something that hit my personal buttons and tickled my
chords, it unavoidably talks about me. Even
when it does not. Even if I try to hide myself so much that I write under a fruity
pseudonym, I live in Raspberryland and I apparently earn my living by getting
ripe. It might have to do with my perpetual ego-stagger, yes, but it´s ok, it´s
fine, it´s beautiful this way.
Sometimes I struggle with my blog not being the
self-confident-realname-universal-objective-cool-trendy-gipsy-modern-sexy blog
that I could make it be, but eventually you have to go look for the truth
within yourself; my truth is this one, and I don´t want it to be any other way.
If I can´t separate me, what I am, think and feel, from what I do - being it
managing some small talk with a superficial client, playing tennis or writing my
new-born-journal-like blog - it means
that I will write my new-born-journal-like blog with the wholeness of myself
and truth that lies within. And I think that this is ultimately why I have a
devotion (together with three-zillion other people) for Cheryl Strayed and her
unabashed, fearless, disarmingly honest way of writing being just herself. Each and every of her fiber
in each and every of her word.
If you think about it, there´s nothing more univesal than that.
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